Became very panicky before, I've slept through most of the restart games as I often have work commitments and can't stay up and tbh it just didn't seem worth it. Girlfriend actually gave me a val before going to bed, she saw the state of me pacing the room, doing stretches. The tablet feels like cheating really, I've put it aside.
Been drunk three nights out of the previous four, want to give it a break. Watched those three youtube links and it occurred to me, stay up or down Villa will still be here, kinda rationalised it all for me really. No interest in anything football, fuck the potential outcomes, what anyone else is doing or West Ham, just the 90 minutes. This may well be the last time we see someone like the great Jack in a Villa shirt, savour that.
Three Fall records on the trot, some Mark E.Smith snark. Fuck em, I'm ready.