Not looking forward to it at all, but it's my last home game of the season and I'm meeting family and friends, so I guess I'd better go. I've just written a piece for the next H&V which celebrates some of our great performances of a few years ago - stunning goals, back-to-back wins, Carew hat-tricks, that sort of thing - and it makes me feel all the more resentful about what we've been served up this season. How low our club has fallen when you say at 2.30 "I suppose we'd better be heading for the ground then. Let's get it over with. It shouldn't take long."